Aren't our hearts SO prone to wander? I feel like my life can be summed up by words to an old hymn - Come Thy Fount of Every Blessing, where it says, "Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, prone to leave the God I love.
We can get distracted by the simplest and silliest things, causing us to wander away from the One we are supposed to love more than any other.
Undoubtedly we will all face times where we struggle whether it be when; we are at odds with a spouse, a child breaks our heart, we lose someone close to us, we can't keep up with life, we have unresolved sin in our life, or our dreams go unfulfilled. There are times when I am struggling with something that I run away from the only One who can fix the problem.
Thursdays are wonderful for me because I usually head out of town to a larger city to do some grocery shopping. During the miles of quiet road I have plenty of time to think (usually quiet...I still have Breanna with me :) ) and evaluate my own life. I have come to love these times of worship and evaluating my relationship with Christ. Today was a tough evaluation as I dealt with areas in my own life where I have wandered away from my Savior. I realized there were areas of my life I did not want to give over to the Lord...can someone relate or is it just me? Can't we become comfortable with our own struggles sometimes? The Lord gently reminded me that we can't grow in Christ if we are determined to stay where we are. There is no bone in my body that wants to stay where I am...I want to be used!
When Christ isn't our first love than anything can substitute that place in our lives. It could be a spouse until they do something that makes us unhappy. It could be a child, work, a hobby, or a fantasy. All of these things will fail at one time or another leading us to crumble as well if our eyes aren't on Christ. We need to fall so deep in love with the Lord that when life does crumble our eyes will still be fixed on Christ. Nothing in life is stable, unfailing, and certain but the Lord and His Word.
The last part of the verse to the hymn I quoted above says, "here's my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above." I don't want to live a life struggling with things that take first place away from the Lord. Let's resolve to keep Him first place!